A Little To Close To Home...

I am sure many of you have watched the show Biggest Loser. Well this season it has hit way to close to home. After 2 years of trying to get pregnant. Two contestants this year told everyone that they were wanting to lose weight now more than ever because one just wants to have children like we do, and the other one has had multiple miscarriages due to her weight. Well last Tuesday while Olivia was crying and asking them to keep her. I had a break through! THIS WOMAN IS ME... Call it what you want. But I went to read her bio and she too has PCOS, diet and exercise were her problem. I so connect with her and she is SO strong. And right then and there I was determined I too would break this cycle and lose weight so I too could finally get the baby I long for so desperately!

Which brings me to our Healthy School Team and the Shelby County Schools

BIGGEST LOSER Contest... SCS style

Well Monday was a scary day! I signed up to be on my school's biggest loser team. So we had our first weigh in. I know that you are supposed to weigh heavy the first time so that it looks good for the first weigh in... Well I weighed heavy alright. It was a moment of pure disappointment, in me, in my husband, my family...

BEFORE!!!! 100 lbs lighter and H O T T!!! No wonder he wanted to date me :) lol

Me on Monday stepping onto the scale :(

WHY DIDN'T ANYONE say "MORGAN DROP THE CHALUPA!!!" No really, I just can believe the morbid transformation that has occurred in the past 4 years. Yep you read that right 4 years. I have gained 100 lbs since the fall that I met my hunka burning love... I mean I know that love makes you do crazy things, but JEEZE there has to be a stop to it!

100 lbs... let me paint you a little picture...

100 lb bag of coffee

100 lb. pumpkin

100 lb. dog

100 lb. weights

100 lb. model

Oh and our healthy school plan leader stated that she weighed 105.. so I could almost put a picture of her on here too! OMG Its amazing I can get out of bed in the morning. My heart is probably saying " I think I can... but, put down the food, I think I can... get off your rear end... I sure hope I can keep this woman alive!"

I have really been on the straight and narrow this week though. I bought into this and am going to do my darnedest to be THE BIGGEST LOSER at my school!!! I mean really I have have no choice I am the largest person on the team. I haven't eaten sweets minus a few star burst all week. I have eaten salads most of the week for lunches, with either chicken or turkey meat on them. I have even eaten breakfast every morning. Next week I am adding in walking with my bestie at Shelby Farms. Once school is out I can go into full force with workout and be the food Nazi... NO FAT FO YOU!!!

There are only 3 weigh ins and it is mostly on your own, but I CAN and WILL do this! I have until October and I know that I will be successful! I will update often because I know that this is going to be a hard road, and I will need to vent and share my successes.

I guess that is all for now... gonna go drink some more water before bed.

FAIL!!! Well at least one thing went right...

Ok so you know that we are fixing up this old house... well I ordered some bedding for a "mock bed" in the 3rd bedroom. We previously used it as an office. I had originally painted it Tiger Blue. I had a silver and black futon and corner desk for my computer. Well after that computer crashed the year Robbie and I met, it became the catch all room. So with this whole selling the house thing I had clean out and paint my Tiger Blue room. It was a sad sad day!

But now that it is painted I have to furnish it. Which brings me back to the original issue... The mock bed. Well, we bought a new bed in January and still have had the box springs, taking up room in the garage of course, Side Bar: Hub's lawn trailer was until recently a cross between the Beverly Hillbillies and Sanford and Son with all the junk we were cleaning out but had no room for. Anyway, my mom had a great idea to use the box springs doubled up as a sort of day bed in the room to make it look bigger. So, tonight I finally got the box springs in the room got my new bedding out to see what it looks like.... This is where the fail comes in. :( I bought a queen size bed in a bag from Macy's for get this SUPER CHEAP!! $29.99. It was some super deal because now it is $49.99 and after opening it... I wouldn't pay that. Here is the pic from Macy's site:

Well it is not long enough to cover the ends of the box springs. The thing that gets me is that the bed skirt that came with it fits the length and ends, but not the comforter.

So, here is what I think I might do, put the bed on the opposite wall pushed into the corner(not my favorite idea, but...). That way I can hide one end and instead of using it as a daybed, it will just have to be a twin bed. I plan on having the room finished by the weekend and will post pictures.

My question to you is, comment on what 2 accent colors you think I should use. Our other bedrooms are nothing like this one. Our master is spa blue and brown and the guest room is done in golds and reds (can you tell I like those colors???). I have 2 colors I think would be good, but would love other opinions :)

Oh and here are 2 pic of the new roman shade look a likes I bought this weekend to cover the back and garage door. Since Zeke chewed the blinds on those doors to pieces. I love love love them and it makes the kitchen look so much better than the chewed up blinds lol.

Now off to bed so I will be bright eyed and bushy tailed for day 2 of TCAP.

DIY Post #2 Kitchen Tile

This is our... "Renovation Realities" (my fav DIY show) Project :)

This project took a good month from finish to completion. There were moments when I really truly thought OMG this is never going to be done. But the finished product is well worth the time it took busy busy folks to finish!

The big decision... the left tile was a 17x17 tile that was more of a solid color not much variation, but had some texture (from Lowes). Choice two was 18x18 tile that had more color variation that was paired at Home Depot with the tile we picked as a back splash(already installed). I posted this pic on Facebook asking for opinions the left one by a vote or two, but we ultimately decided on the right choice. We are super happy that we did!!!

Hallway before the tile job started... bare concrete

Tiles are in but not grouted yet.

The boys started on the kitchen and this is about 3 hours in... Can we say NOT motivated :) lol

Morning of Day 2, this is what was finished on Day one of Kitchen Tile

Another view of day one progress... on to day 2

Day 2 of breakfast area/ kitchen tile

More of day 2 of kitchen tile

After many weeks of weekend and a few nights work, we began grouting and finishing up. Here are the finished pictures.

Grout it in!

Grout is dry and looks FAB!!!

looking from the living room

breakfast area before we brought the table back in.

This is where the magic happens lol! Really I do spend many hours right here on weekend nights making cakes :)

Walkway to the garage and laundry room

Thank You Lord!!! We have completed this Kitchen!!!

Bitter Sweet...

That is the only way to sum up my feelings. I'm happy, but sad. I have really been trying to suppress my wanting a baby lately to focus on other things. But , literally everyone I know is knocked up. And to make it worse, most of them are on their 2nd and even 3rd. And of course many have just decided to start trying and BAM! Then there is me infertile Square peg. I'm feeling really lousy! Trying not to give up hope but its really hard and I feel like I'm being left behind. :(

Things that make you go Hmmm...

So at many different times in my life I have noticed peoples actions and wonders wth??? In my experience I have taken what people say and do as good examples or not so hot examples. Why is it that as we get older some people grow older too and then there are those who seem to be stuck in egocentric mode or highschool stupidity. I am sure this is only a question that God himself could begin to explain to me.

I know as women we are prone to drama whether we like it or not, but come on folks we are in our thirties... Well some of us( I know some of you reading this aren't... But you are close lol) recently I was exposed to this type of behavior from the male persuasion... Really? How old are we? Is it really cool at 30 or more to make fun of your friend? I have found that thing we thought were hilarious at 20 are just not anymore.

Another thing I wonder is that if we continue to repeat something over and over are we trying to convince ourselves or are we trying convince others??? If we are excited about something but put a but blah blah blah in there to follow, are we really excited or we just trying to make ourselves feel better. This is kind of what leads me to my next hmmm...

Last but not least, yes I have given up trying for a baby right now, truly because I feel like God has pushed me in a different direction. But I still have feelings about it. I have overwhelming excitement for friends who are pregnant. Sure I do have moments where I wish it were me but, others I just wish those who were pregnant wouldn't share quite so much. Now, I don't mean to offend anyone who is pregnant and I am happy and have joy in my heart for you and your baby. I know sometimes people say that only a mother would understand... Well I think only a person who has really had trouble with getting or staying pregnant can understand where I am coming from. I think we(fertility
challenged) get a bad rap for not being happy or are seen as jealous but really it just is like putting salt in an open wound to hear every detail of the pregnancy.

But enough about that, I have two friends/ family who have had a terrible time at this adventure but both have been blessed with a sweet
little gift and I am just completely overjoyed for them both. One was a product of IVF and the other have been blessed with the ability to
stay pregnant. I have prayed and prayed for both couples and it gives me great joy to know the prayers are working. :)

I just needed to get that off my chest. Was going to post more pictures and post about the kitchen being done, but can't do it from my phone and now look where I went. Guess that was weighing on me, yep that was my rant post for the month lol

DIY Robbins Style Part 1

Well as you have read, we are trying desperately to get our house market ready so we can sell that joker and move on to greener pastures. Well without Internet I haven't been able to update much... So today is the day that I will post some pics of the projects. We we still haven't grouted the tile, have a room and and a bathroom to paint, and the list could go on.

Guest Bathroom Tiled

Mid Backsplash Tile Job

Kitchen Backsplash Tiled

Master Bath Vanity area before (carpet)

Toilet & Bath Area Before (linoleum)

Master Closet before (carpet)

Closet pre - grout

Vanity Area pre - grout

Closet completed

Toilet and Bath Area Complete

We have also ripped up the carpet in the hallway, and tiled the hallway, kitchen, pantry and laundry room. Pictures soon! We had the exterior of the house painted, have painted the master, guest, and are in the process of finishing painting the office. Once we get those rooms finished I will post pics of those, and hopefully there will be a FOR SALE sign and a St. Joseph's statue burried in the yard!!!

Much needed update... Short and sweet style

Well since a few folks have pointed out that I've been MIA, here is a very quick update.

* we cancelled our Internet so I'm typing this on my phone(can we say INCONVENIENT)
But since we have no internet I haven't been blogging

* nope not pregnant... Although it is in the water, but I've been drinking kool aid.. Lol

* we are in full chaos mode with getting our house ready for the market. Also contributing the MIAness

* I originally gave up bread for Lent, but decided I am giving up the want for a baby. That is much harder for me. I can't imagine that we were put on Earth and were not supposed to be parents, but at this point I am starting to think that maybe I'm wrong. I know you are supposed to give something up that will cause you some sort of suffrage. Well there you go! But I have added deep prayer for those who are or longing to become pregnant. I figure if I'm not going to be a parent I should focus my prayer and energy on people who are chosen to have little gifts from God.

I am apologizing now for typos and such. Typing on an iPhone that loves to change my words lol
Once life gets less hectic I will try to resume blogging! I miss it so much!!!