This month is CRAZY busy!!! But I am making time...

Man... I have so much going on over the next month it is CRAZY! But, a sweet dear friend stopped by this past week and gifted me a new read. Taking Charge of Your Fertility by Weschler. It is a wealth of knowledge on Fertility Awareness Method. It also lets me know that Doctors actually jump the gun on "DIAGNOSING" infertility. That is actually very comforting to me!!!! I mean that was/ is at times my hang up! How can you diagnose one with infertility if you haven't tried to figure out what is causing one to not get pregnant. But, anyway I already know most of the charting, temping, etc information I have read so far, but it is very informative! It also gives me many questions I would like to ask Dr. H when I have the chance. I go for blood work a week from today to check how the metformin is working. I hope they say that its good. I also hope they say that Dr. H wants to put me on clomid. I really would like to try it out to see if it might help me. Two of my friends have just had babies and they are so sweet and precious! It makes me really want one on my own!

Funk Lifted... THANK YOU GOD!!!

Ok well today was much better than yesterday. I was able to sleep in and really think about what is going on. A sweet dear friend and my mom told me that maybe that was my answer from my prayers to God. I am thinking maybe he has been giving me many signs trying to say hey can you let me take care of this??? I had Robbie call and cancel his appointment too. I have decided to let go and and let God take the wheel! He is truly the only one who can help us and his help is FREE!!! I have posted this bible verse everywhere to remind me if I start thinking negatively...

As soon as I pray, you answer me; you encourage me by giving me strength. Psalms 138:3

When you think it can't get worse....

well, this blog is taking a different road than I had originally planned. I had originally started this hoping that after my 3 months of sinus HELL that I would be happy and telling all about our crazy adventure we call life. Then life happened and I just haven't been blogging. I had an my annual appointment in March and asked my doctor about fertility... we decided to start trying in June 09 and still hadn't had any luck. Till that point I thought you know maybe God knew that my sinus problems would have been way worse pregnant... So that was why we hadn't had any luck. My doctor agreed that she saw some signs that there might be some problems. I had a bunch of blood work, and I do mean A LOT.... like 7 viles to be exact. A week later I am diagnosed with PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome) and am insulin resistant. I am told to get on South Beach diet ( SUPER HARD), start taking a Metformin (a type 2 diabetes med), and told to loose weight.

I start having some symptoms that are not normal for me... I think could my prayers have been answered. I know that the timing wasn't ideal but, maybe I am pregnant. Only to start a week early. I am told the Metformin can cause some changes, um yeah! Doc said to call the first day of my next cycle so we can set up an HSG test. Well I did as told and today get a call from the hospital saying that my insurance wont cover the test. Why you might ask??? Well my doctor "diagnosed" me with infertility. Insurance will pay for all tests until a diagnoses is given. My question is how do they know that I am infertile if they haven't tested me???? Well I guess your guess is as good as mine because I can' t afford the $1800 + it cost to find out if there are problems.

So here am back as square one, not pregnant, tired, stressed, sad, and no hope of knowing if there is anything wrong with me or not. As the nurse said, I will just have to wait and see if the Metformin regulates me. And if not... I guess I will be the mother to my students and my dog. Hopefully this funk will lift... VERY SOON!

THE SAINTS GO MARCHING IN, ROBBIE'S 32ND BIRTHDAY, & SNOW DAY#4

Well one could get used to no school on Mondays in Memphis and Shelby County.... No really...

32 years ago yesterday my wonderful hubby was born. So, Super Bowl Sunday was two fold this year. I have not completely recovered from my sinus surgery (beginning to think it was a mistake) and was laid up on the made up bed for a few hours before the festivities began. But, not Robbie, he was up bright and early on his b-day to start smoking his and Nic's infamous ribs. With friends and family coming over to cheer on Dem Saints and Colts we cleaned up and got ready to par-tay. We had a spread... rotel, corn dip, veggies, Doritos that taste like hamburgers, ribs, lasagna, and of course a football field birthday cake from Polka Dot Bakery (aka my lil Ellen). Of course I knew all along that the Saints were going to win, but Robbie was pulling for the Colts. But, there were a few sour sports(Robbie's words) when my team pulled out a victory! WHO DAT!!! Before the night was over someone mentioned it was supposed to snow. We were all like YEAH RIGHT!!!

5:05 am Robbie comes in and wakes me up saying there was white EVERYWHERE... I was like right... that is so not funny! He flipped on the TV and sure enough Shelby county schools were closed along with any other school in the tri-state area. Well, I am not sure if it was the excitement of an unexpected snow day or just that he woke me up and I was rested... I was wide awake and wanted DONUTS! Apparently Kroger opens at 6 am but they don't have donuts at 6 am. So, we made the trek to Howard's on 64... it was snowing harder than I have ever seen. By the time we got home there were about 4 inches on everything. I ate a donut or two and decided to go sleep in since it was only 7 am . Woke up and half of the snow was gone and the roads were completely clear, but... sleet was falling fast and furious! In fact it still is... So the big question is... will we or won't we go to school tomorrow???

I don't want to jinx it... But

Well, today is Saturday... since my last post my loving hubby has cleaned out 1 side of the garage and even tried to keep the house clean since he and mom cleaned while I was laid up in bed. I am starting to feel semi-normal! Last night I ventured out for the first time non sinus related... well not really just next door. The Woodards invited us over for wii and beverages. I am still not up for wii or beverages, but it was fun catching up with Kendall while the boys played wii. It was actually really nice to get out of the house, 10 days confined to the house can give you cabin fever. Of course for Robbie 1 day of being confined to the house due to ice and snow was enough for him.

I am really feeling better almost... do I dare say it... close to normal. I've had a bit of trouble sleeping or should I say getting to sleep. Robbie says I sleep too much. But, everyone can't be all early to rise in a great mood. I never promised to be a morning person. haha

We have been lucky enough to not lose power during this inclement weather. We were supposed to venture to my parents' house today for early birthday lunch for Robbie, but they cancelled because they had problems with their power last night. So, Robbie is like kid being cooped up, thinking of reasons to leave the house. And we have one for dinner but the time in between is killing him :)

That's all for now

Sick and Tired of being Sick and Tired

Well, where do I begin??? Back in December I had the feeling I was getting a sinus infection... BOY WAS I RIGHT! Now, almost 2 months later I had endoscopic sinus surgery done this past Wednesday. From all of this I have come to realize I could never be one of those people who are chronically sick... I mean I have hated being out of work, not being able to go out with friends, and being confined to the bed has not been a high point at all!!!

Anyway, I am currently the luckiest girl in the world! My mom, hubby, and sweet pup Zeke have been taking good care of me since the surgery. At first I wasn't sure who was more worried about me, Robbie or Zeke. Mom and Robbie wouldn't let Zeke in the room with me the first night and he guarded the bedroom door trying to get in every time they would come check on me. Day 2 was Zeke's favorite because he got to sleep next to me and check in on me anytime he wanted. Day 3 was not the best day, I ventured out into the brave new world of trying to eat something. I never have had trouble with eating anything really... you can tell that by looking at me, but now soup even scares me. Soup... soup shouldn't scare anyone. I literally spent an hour trying to eat a bowl of soup without getting sick. Day 4 has been more of the same. I did have 2 visitors. Sara brought me some ice cream and we talked and talked and talked... Then Lizz came by and brought Popsicles galore and a frosty! I have identified that about an hour to 45 minutes before my next dose of medicine I start feeling sick again.

So, on that note it is time for medicine and I think I will be heading back to rest now... hopefully this will run its course and I will be back in action soon... keep your fingers crossed!