Poem for those of us who have and are struggling with IF

A sweet sweet friend shared this with me today. She is now pregnant with her second with help of meds and all the jazz. Not sure who wrote it.


There are women who become mothers without effort, without thought, without patience or loss,and though they are good mothers and love their children,I know that I will be better.

I will be better not because of genetics or money or because I have read more books,but because I have struggled and toiled for this child.

I have longed and waited.I have cried and prayed.I have endured and planned over and over again.

Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation are those who have struggled to attain their dreams.I will notice everything about my child.

I will take time to watch my child sleep,explore,and discover.I will marvel at this miracle every day for the rest of my life.I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of my child, knowing that I can comfort, hold, and feed him and that I am not waking to take another temperature, pop another pill, take another shot or cry tears of a broken dream.

My dream will be crying for me.I count myself lucky in this sense; that God has given me this insight, this special vision with which I will look upon my child.Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to or a child that God leads me to, I will not be careless with my love.

I will be a better mother for all that I have endured. I am a better wife, a better aunt, a better daughter, neighbor, friend, and sister because I have known pain.I know disillusionment, as I have been betrayed by my own body. I have been tried by fire and hell that many never face, yet given time, I stood tall.

I have prevailed.I have succeeded.I have won.

So now, when others hurt around me, I do not run from their pain in order to save myself discomfort. I see it, mourn it, and join them in theirs.I listen.And even though I cannot make it better, I can make it less lonely.

I have learned the immense power of another hand holding tight to mine, of other eyes that moisten as they learn to accept the harsh truth when life is beyond hard.I have learned a compassion that only comes by walking in those shoes.

I have learned to appreciate life.

Yes, I will be a wonderful mother.

31 years ago

When I think of what life was like 31 years ago, I am amazed at the difference! I mean the world has changed so much! If you asked me 10 years ago what I would be doing or where I would be in life at 31 I am sure what I would have said would not come close to my reality today. I am so blessed to have this beautiful life that I have. So, 31 years ago today I came into this world. Over the years I have made many choices that I think were great! Some not so great, but I learned from them and as my dad always told me "It builds character." So at 31 I have more character than one might need. I have way more dreams that I am still trying to make a reality. I am thankful for these last 3 decades. I pray that I live to see another 31 too! Thanks to all those out there that have helped me along my winding road of life! I am pretty content with the way my life has turned out so far, it can only get better right???