Saturday, October 27, 2012

I think I can... I hope I can...

Well I started the "liver shrink" diet on Thursday. I have stopped caffeine cold turkey. Enough said! Oh my goodness the excruciating pain in my head is ridiculous! I mean I have tried to stop caffeine before but not food and caffeine. Here is a looksie into my life right now:

breakfast - protein shake or bar (220 cal or less)
mid morning snack - 1/2 cup of fruit
lunch - protein shake or bar (220 cal or less)
afternoon snack - 1/2 cup of fruit
dinner - AHHHH FOOD....
              3 oz of lean meat

unlimited green veggies through out the day but must be steamed or raw
NO butter, oils, dairy, caffeine

Which really means I am eating food... but my head is not seeing it that way. Every(well so far 2) afternoon about 2pm I start getting the head ache.  :(

Now, that is the only complaining! The end result is worth this, I just didn't prepare myself for it with my crazy busy schedule.

Oh yeah I went to the cardiologist and apparently have a slight murmur... so I have to have some nuclear test or something on Monday. Please pray that it is nothing bad. Or else I might not behaving this surgery after all.

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

God has a great sense of humor

Well... God has brought me to a crossroad. Thank goodness he know what is best for me more than I know myself. This afternoon, we got confirmation, our buyer accepted our counter offer. Short of sounding corny, unanswered prayers is playing in my head. We are officially under contract. My first reaction was to burst into tears. I am not gonna lie, its going to be hard to say goodbye to my very first big girl purchase. But, I know that God put this woman in our path on purpose.

I am going to have to really put my trust in him this next month. If all goes through, I will be having my surgery on the 8th,  closing on my house on the 30th, and moving in with my sweet mother in law for then next few months.

I have realized that I have become about as cynical about selling the house as I have about getting pregnant. I really had told myself this was NOT going to happen. I mean I already had my Christmas ornament exchange invitations printed (super deal) with this address...

Anyway, please pray that all goes well and through and we are able to get all moved out and life is just as it should be.

Monday, October 22, 2012

Let's Make A Deal...

I feel like I am on that game show! And I just gave back my winnings to choose a curtain... You know the one... with the really crappy prize...

On Friday we showed the house to a lady who seemed to love it. I could tell by the look on her face when she left, by Friday night we had a call from our agent... We were getting an offer. They were going to work on it Sat. morning and send it over... Well that turned into Sunday, which then turned into Monday. And finally this afternoon we got the offer... LOW BALL, but hey it was an offer. In the mean time we got two calls for showings today, we were able to show it one of the times and that couple stayed in the house for about as long as the lady with the offer. Maybe a good sign...

Well our realtor came over after the showing with the offer and to discuss the counter offer. We started crunching numbers and realized quickly that we have pretty much put ourselves between a rock and a hard place. We are not going to make ANYTHING hardly with the sell of this house. Nevermind the fact that we have dropped the price 10,000 since we listed it over a year ago. I know I should be happy if she accepts that we aren't having to pay out of pocket anything, but JEEZE. It really hit me tonight that due to this foreclosure epidemic that I really am giving away all that I have worked so hard for the past 10 years. And I am not even in foreclosure, or anywhere close... I am not able to sell my house for what is worth thanks to bad judgements of the powers that be.

It makes me sick to my stomach! I bought this house 10 years ago on my own, and I guess now that I might sell it, it is hitting me, this house was not the investment that it should have been. I am not going to come out with hardly anything to show... almost like maybe I should have just rented for the past 10 years.

Do I dare say it... I kinda wish that it falls through...

Saturday, October 20, 2012

Life seems to be in FAST FORWARD...

I am not sure who hit the fast forward button on my life, but man... Life seems to be in high gear. My last post was about fall break and here we are a 2 weeks later and life has been nuts. Fall break was a GREAT week to not do anything school related. I cleaned out closets, our storage unit, you name it if it wasn't nailed down I was going to either sell it or give it to Goodwill.

I had the most unsuccessful yard sale ever. We made like $80. Really was more of a waste of my time than it was a money maker. I didn't get my hair done or a massage or anything like that. I had an appointment to get the hair done, but my sweet friend's sister in law was gunned down at her job by an employee she had to fire the day before. So she had to go be with her family in Louisiana. So sad and senseless. I hope that man is put in prison where he can' t do that to the next person who makes him mad. But, anyway I box dyed my hair myself and it looks pretty snazzy if I do say so :) All in all Fall break was great! But, it got me thinking, man I wish I could be a housewife. I made dinner each night, cleaned house, etc. It was great not being completely drained each night. That is never going to happen but, its a nice thought :)

But, Monday it was back to the routine. It was a rough day for me and the kids getting back into the swing of things. My surgeon's office called and threw me into hyper drive. My surgery will not be the 30th as planned. It is going to be November 8th. Which I had originally wanted, but we couldn't get cardiac clearance until the 2nd. But, at this point I was given the 8th or 2013. I don't want to wait that long. So, this set forth alot of appointments super quick. Yesterday I had an upper gi... GROSS! It was an experience, and I am glad that is over. Monday I have my pre-op visit with Dr. W. This is when I will get my liver shrink diet for the next few weeks, and get more info on the surgery and post surgery stuff. Then, Thursday I go for my cardiac clearance. Then two weeks from that is the surgery. I have tried this weekend to think of food I may not be able to eat again and eat it... but the crazy thing is none of it has tasted as good as I thought it was going to taste. Could my body be helping me realize that I wont be missing these things after all?!?!?! I think maybe. But needless to say, this time next month I will be recovering and not eating Turkey and dressing like I have in the past. But I will still have so much to be Thankful for!

Now, I would like to ask for some prayers for my neighbors. They found out a few weeks ago that they were pregnant with their third child. It has been a rough time for them lately as she has been out of work since the spring. She was really worried about finding a job etc. Well she got a job on Wednesday. So that was great. She went for her first ultrasound yesterday and it didn't go well. Last night she had to go to the ER for the pain. Turns out she was having an ectopic pregnancy, her tube ruptured and they had to remove it this morning. It is always so sad when this happens. I know that they both are going to need prayers to get through this and for her to heal safely. I also know that her two kiddos are going to need help to understand what happened, as they had already told them.

I have two more blog posts in the works, but they are both unfinished so, be looking for them :)

Thursday, October 4, 2012

Fall Break!

In less that 24 hours I will have A WHOLE WEEK OFF!!! I love love love my job, but it just gets more difficult each year. It has only been 9 weeks so far, but I am thanking God for the week long break we get in the fall.

My plans for the week you ask?!?!? NOTHING set in stone. I plan on resting, relaxing, and pampering. I am finally going to get my hair colored and cut. It has been since before school started. And for many that might not make that big of a deal, but see I have this "skunk stripe" (what my bff and hair guru calls it) it is literally a stripe starting at my forehead. Yep that's right, right in front and it isn't just gray... It's starting to grow out white. So, pulling it back in a pony tail is kinda embarrassing at this point. Well, I think I might just get a facial or massage or something too. My mom and I are going to lunch and a movie. The rest is pretty open. My principal gave us orders that we were to leave school at school and spend the week school FREE. You don't have to tell me twice :)

Tuesday I went for my nutrition consult. And let's just say... the ball is rolling full speed ahead. I have an upper GI scheduled in two weeks, and my cardiac clearance first of November. And.... My surgery date! November 30th is the day! That will be the day I start the rest of my life. I am a ball of emotions about this. I am super excited to get on my way to a healthier, thinner me. I am anxious to see how it works out. I am scared of course its a major surgery. It will be laproscopic (sp), but still... I will go in with a whole stomach and come out with one the size of a banana. I can't believe that it is coming so quickly.

Have a great Friday!