This month is CRAZY busy!!! But I am making time...

Man... I have so much going on over the next month it is CRAZY! But, a sweet dear friend stopped by this past week and gifted me a new read. Taking Charge of Your Fertility by Weschler. It is a wealth of knowledge on Fertility Awareness Method. It also lets me know that Doctors actually jump the gun on "DIAGNOSING" infertility. That is actually very comforting to me!!!! I mean that was/ is at times my hang up! How can you diagnose one with infertility if you haven't tried to figure out what is causing one to not get pregnant. But, anyway I already know most of the charting, temping, etc information I have read so far, but it is very informative! It also gives me many questions I would like to ask Dr. H when I have the chance. I go for blood work a week from today to check how the metformin is working. I hope they say that its good. I also hope they say that Dr. H wants to put me on clomid. I really would like to try it out to see if it might help me. Two of my friends have just had babies and they are so sweet and precious! It makes me really want one on my own!

Funk Lifted... THANK YOU GOD!!!

Ok well today was much better than yesterday. I was able to sleep in and really think about what is going on. A sweet dear friend and my mom told me that maybe that was my answer from my prayers to God. I am thinking maybe he has been giving me many signs trying to say hey can you let me take care of this??? I had Robbie call and cancel his appointment too. I have decided to let go and and let God take the wheel! He is truly the only one who can help us and his help is FREE!!! I have posted this bible verse everywhere to remind me if I start thinking negatively...

As soon as I pray, you answer me; you encourage me by giving me strength. Psalms 138:3

When you think it can't get worse....

well, this blog is taking a different road than I had originally planned. I had originally started this hoping that after my 3 months of sinus HELL that I would be happy and telling all about our crazy adventure we call life. Then life happened and I just haven't been blogging. I had an my annual appointment in March and asked my doctor about fertility... we decided to start trying in June 09 and still hadn't had any luck. Till that point I thought you know maybe God knew that my sinus problems would have been way worse pregnant... So that was why we hadn't had any luck. My doctor agreed that she saw some signs that there might be some problems. I had a bunch of blood work, and I do mean A LOT.... like 7 viles to be exact. A week later I am diagnosed with PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome) and am insulin resistant. I am told to get on South Beach diet ( SUPER HARD), start taking a Metformin (a type 2 diabetes med), and told to loose weight.

I start having some symptoms that are not normal for me... I think could my prayers have been answered. I know that the timing wasn't ideal but, maybe I am pregnant. Only to start a week early. I am told the Metformin can cause some changes, um yeah! Doc said to call the first day of my next cycle so we can set up an HSG test. Well I did as told and today get a call from the hospital saying that my insurance wont cover the test. Why you might ask??? Well my doctor "diagnosed" me with infertility. Insurance will pay for all tests until a diagnoses is given. My question is how do they know that I am infertile if they haven't tested me???? Well I guess your guess is as good as mine because I can' t afford the $1800 + it cost to find out if there are problems.

So here am back as square one, not pregnant, tired, stressed, sad, and no hope of knowing if there is anything wrong with me or not. As the nurse said, I will just have to wait and see if the Metformin regulates me. And if not... I guess I will be the mother to my students and my dog. Hopefully this funk will lift... VERY SOON!