Sunday, November 3, 2013

1 week later

Well, a week ago today was the saddest, most disappointing day of our lives thus far. Even though we will never stop grieving this loss, we have moved to a place where functioning "normally" is coming back. I go back to work tomorrow... I am praying that no one asks me where I was all week, or if I am ok. I just want to be in my classroom with my kiddos.

I am only going to be there until lunch though... tomorrow is my 1 year post op appointment. I am very happy with my weight loss over the past year. I am at 90 lbs lost. But, I do wish I could have been at 100 or even 125 at this point. I know if I had worked at it a tad more I would have been there. I am making it my priority to get the next 30 to 35 off by February. I am going to hit the gym 5 days a week. There is not excuse. Not to mention we can't "try" for a whole cycle. So, I could get some weight off before we are able to start back. And the elliptical machine will totally shutter when I get on cause I have A LOT of built up anger after this loss. What better way to get it out... my new anger management :)

I know that the holidays are coming and that can be a set back. But I am going to make an example of how to eat healthy and still manage to enjoy the holidays! Its all about portion control.

And above all... this gives me something to focus on.

8 comments:

  1. Praying for you, as you try to get back to "normal"

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  2. Praying for you still! Glad you have a new goal to keep you busy. :) Hoping everything at school goes well!!

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  3. Praying that your morning back has gone well!
    I hope your appointment goes well and I hear you on losing (or at least maintaining) through the holidays.

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  4. I hope work went well today! Congrats on the weight loss so far, and yes, it is possible to maintain/lose weight during the holidays. I was so careful one year that I still got to enjoy what I had, but I just didn't overdo and I actually lost weight that year. I'm glad you've found a constructive way to channel the emotions, but damn I wish you didn't have to. Praying for you!

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  5. I hope going back to work went ok. It must have been so different ... but maybe good to get back to things?
    I am so impressed that you lost 90 lbs! I have no doubt that you'll be losing more. ((Hugs))

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  6. Ladies I would be lost without you and your gracious prayers! The first day back went well the dr went even better... Post soon!

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  7. I'm so sorry for your loss =( Your workouts sound like a great way to get out anger! I too am super impressed with your weight loss! Praying for you and your husband as you grieve your loss.

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  8. I was saddened to read about your loss. My heart broke for you as I was reading about it. I am so sorry. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

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