Sunday, May 30, 2010

5:30 am RANT... and RAVE

Ok, something's gotta give!!! I am 13 DPO and this is the second time in the past few days that I have been awakened around 5:30 nauseous... What gives? I know what my mind tells me... OMG this is it... your going to get a BFP... Why cant the freaking test say that!!! I have been feeling so weird for the past week, so many symptoms out of the ordinary... I have been trying to tell myself that this could be our month. Then I test and nothing... stark white. I am just so confused. This happens while I am asleep and after lunch time almost everyday for a week now.

I watched the best movie last night. Facing the Giants. Wow my sweet friend told me to watch it at least a month ago. I put it on my Netflix list and it finally came yesterday. As I am typing this I am tearing up (symptom) just thinking about how awesome a movie it was. Now, she told me I needed to watch it because it was about how you can't give up, that you gotta let God have it, and of course its about our favorite sport football. About 15 minutes into the movie I think it was, they came face to face with Robbie and my greatest obstacle these days. Of course the movie ends with everything going their way thanks be to God who they totally lift all burdens up to! Which I myself did on April 9th. But, this movie has made me reflect and reassess whether or not I really gave it all to him.

Three things I will leave with...

Attitude is the aroma of your heart, if your attitude stinks your heart ain't right! :) Love that quote straight from the movie

Give God the Glory when you win, but also win you lose

With God all things are possible... turning around a losing season all the way to getting our BFP!!!


  1. Love that inspirational. :)

    Been there, done that with the phantom's enough to drive you crazy, right? There are often reasons for it (as PCOS totally jacks things up as far as hormones are concerned). If you're really concerned about the symptoms, ask the OB/RE to run a beta panel...that tests hCg levels and would tell you for sure, even if a home test doesn't.

    Hope you're feeling better now and can enjoy your holdiay weekend...and that you get some answers and have peace about things even now. :)

  2. thanks for your input! Dr. Ke gave me provera to take if I don't start. Actually he told me to start last week. But I just can't do it if I was/am going to get pregnant kiwm? I should start tomorrow. If my temp stays up I will go for a few more days just to see. If not I will start the provera... and go on to the next cycle.... I hate those words!

  3. Thanks for the congratulations!! Your blog is super cute-I can't wait to catch up!

  4. Well, I am a little late reading this....Any news??!!