We attended our annual NYE party at my best friend Jessica's house. It was a great time had by all. It was fun to unwind and catch up with friends that we don't get to see on a daily basis. The only negative of the night was there isn't a decent countdown in Memphis on TV. We had to make our own.
Now, that is where my night turned way sideways. I had thought I was over the initial sadness of the last ttc disappointment. I think I might have just swept it under the carpet to get through the holidays because after the NYE kiss, I cried. And cried. And couldn't stop crying. I cried for about an hour and 1/2 til we got home and in bed. I guess sometimes you just need to get it out. But, I tend to be weepy like that and the simplest thing makes me cry. So, I guess my new year didn't really start they way I had it playing out in my mind. But, I did have my sweet husband and my very best friend in the whole wide world there to comfort me, cry with me, and just be there for me.
I pray that this year is much better than the last for everyone. I know that it will be and God will continue to bless each and every one of us.
Just wanted you to know that I love you and I know how disappointing that feeling can be. As much as you say you aren't really expecting it, that one small part of your brain is holding on to the hope. I am sorry for your rollercoaster! My pastor emailed me this: A world you can't predict demands a God you can trust! I love it. He also said that faith is a key to every miracle. Expect that your faith will allow God to give you your little miracle!
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