Tuesday, December 20, 2011

I can't stand that feeling...

that feeling of your chest tightening, and throat closing up when someone announces that they are pregnant. I really thought I had moved pasted it. But, I for some reason this holiday season (starting back with the annual Christmas party I went to a few weeks back) it is really hitting me hard. I am kind of ashamed to even admit it.

Last night I had an ornament exchange at my house. There were about 15 people that were able to come. More than half of them either were pregnant or have kids. So, more than most of the convos had to do with children and you guessed it I got that feeling. To those who were there reading, please know it had nothing to do with you. I love all of your little kiddos and the ones you are going to have. :)

Today, it was FB. Either I am reading about people announcing they are pregnant or others talking about the sweet things they do with their kids. I am so JEALOUS! I am sure that watching Marley and Me, and the rain didn't help but, I was a little down in the dumps. So, I tried to fill the void by posting about me & my sweet pup, then started baking. Hopefully the sun will come out tomorrow. :) I am looking forward to this coming year, I really feel hopeful that 2012 is our year for either our own baby or one God hand picks for us! I don't even want to think about this time next year if we aren't with child one way or another. It just brings back that feeling again...


  1. I know that feeling all too well. I have some friends that I'm supposed to see over Christmas. I do want to see them, but I'm not sure that I can handle those same conversations that you're talking about. Wanna make a deal? I'll pray for you if you pray for me. :) Well, I'll pray for you either way!

  2. Praying for both of you! Such a bittersweet time of year.

  3. I hear you on the physical effects of hearing about a new pregnancy. It hurts. I'm so sorry. It's even tougher at Christmas, I think.
    I'm also praying for your student, too. I hope things are looking up or will be once we pray up a storm.
    I'm hoping 2012 is the year we get our dreams to come true!