Saturday, April 9, 2011

Bitter Sweet...

That is the only way to sum up my feelings. I'm happy, but sad. I have really been trying to suppress my wanting a baby lately to focus on other things. But , literally everyone I know is knocked up. And to make it worse, most of them are on their 2nd and even 3rd. And of course many have just decided to start trying and BAM! Then there is me infertile Square peg. I'm feeling really lousy! Trying not to give up hope but its really hard and I feel like I'm being left behind. :(


  1. I am so sorry you are feeling like this Morgan. I hate that you feel like a "square peg" in this situation. I know how you feel though, I felt that way for so long and still am scared for this pregnancy and afraid I will go back to those feelings too.

    I am glad you have all the house renovations going on, it sure helps to have something to focus on, but I know those feeling are still there, just under the surface.

    Prayers and ((hugs)).

  2. Just wanted you to know that i am praying for you. I know it is hard and what it feels like when EVERYONE is pregnant. You aren't sure if you are praying, begging, pleading, or questioning. Know that I am here for you and ready to let you vent WHENEVER you need to.

    Love you

  3. I think that everyone who struggles with infertility feels that way at some time or another. It seems so unfair that IFers have to battle not only the physical symptoms and stress as well as the feelings. As someone who's been there, I KNOW it sucks and can be pretty consuming at times.

    Just remember that knows the desires of your heart and that your time is coming, even though it might not be in the way or the time that you think or expect. I think it's absolutely normal to feel that way and healthy for you to let it out like this. I would have been in the loony bin had it not been for blogging during trying times...and still would somedays! :)

    Just wanted you to know that I'm praying for you. Let me know if there's anything I can do to help or if you need to talk to someone who's been in those shoes. Hugs!